ASK ASK - ASK !!

Fucking ASK Search has ruined my life,,, well at least my new MAC,,,

I don't know where it came from,, but I would do any thing to get rid of this Malware, search engine,,, which BTW ,if it even worked it all maybe I would not mind so much.. EVERY THIN you type into the HTTP line,, that is not is that format - opens this incredibly  useless ASK Search.

IF you know how to get rid of this thing ,, short of setting my MAC on FIRE  - give me a call,,,,

OK, I still miss the NEWSROOM,,,  I am enjoying the new episodes of TRUE DETECTIVE - like you care,,,

Things are going well in retirement,, HA - hardest times I have had in the last 10 years..

funny,, as part of my "retirement" I get a statement from my ex employer - IBM ,- that outlines my cost for Retiree medical coverage,, well,  might as well just send my retirement check over to the medical department, as they about equal each other - nearly $1600 in Medical,, who's kidding who here,,,  one cold never retire of they have to pay that out of pocket cost,,, any one old enough to remember when as an IBMer you got free medical as an employee and as a retiree,,, just one more thing that was how would you say it  - STOLE?N - by corporate greed,,, although I did not feel good about the last Quarters results because they are going to pay us GDP - profit sharing (HAHAH) based on that result,,, so maybe get enough for a few tanks of gas.   We will see,,,

now its not IBMs fault that 47 % of my Vacation check was STOLEN by the Government for taxes,, Jesus  christ,,,   If I thought they were doin something useful with it I would not feel as bad.  GOOD GOD ,,,

Dis connection

Occurs to me that in this day , we , or I have lost my Family,,, now the have not gone anywhere , really,,,  Just that I think about when My family was young,, Minor  holidays,  and Made up holidays, and Sundays were all spent together.  There would not be a Fathers day when I did not see most of my children, and while realizing that they have lives of their own,  I am not sure its an excuse.   we ain't just talking fathers days, as I really don't care about that day in particular, as I  do the trend that things are going,, we  spend so many days apart. Its too far to drive,  and it is !  its way across the country, or its just not convenient  or no one gives a shit.

It could be that it is not realized that the opportunity is not always there, and saying I wish we had after we no longer can is meaningless BS.

I wonder why .......  why ,, no one comes to my house,  and we are not invited to others, I am not the easiest person to get along with, maybe that is  it... maybe the house IS too small ,    the every other weekend work does not help,,,  or maybe no one gives a shit,   maybe the small house is it,,, but it certainly seems unimaginable that my grandson,, has been to my home less than 5 times in over 2 and a 1/2 years. ,  the toys we have for him here or had,, heck we got rid of them,,, the playpen when he was young, the Highchair that was used exactly once, no need for all that. I contrast that with my children who were at both of their grandparents homes 5 times in probably the 1st 4-6 weeks of their lives, why is that  ?  I am not judging,, I just don't know,, and I would like to..  my Grand son has been to 3 maybe  4 Yankee games,,,   but not with me - don't know why that is....  We took our kids ,, perhaps not at two,, but hauled them all there when they were young. 

I guess I just do not understand why,,,  no one will say,, that's normally not the kind of thing that is said as people think that there is something terrible about telling the Truth.

I think its time for me to change my part of the behavior,, to just wait to be called,,   I am just concerned that my life will end, and I will see that it was me all along that no one wanted around,,, or maybe no one gives a shit,,

Notes from all over:

Do you know that as a Fat person, no clothes actually fit you ?             I don't care what the Mens Warehouse says - nothing fits,.. pants are too tight here,  too Baggy there,... You have trouble getting up,, you prop yourself on other items to stand or walk. You sweat,,, sometimes ,,, ok Always,,, it seems too hot.   xl in one brand is L in another is an XXL,, so who knows exactly what to buy,, BUt Like I said,, just buy it big..  People look at you,, that knew you whenn you  were Normal sized,,, and If they thought little of you before they think less now,, F 'em.

the next project is off to a good start. Demo done,,,   walls have been reframed with 2x4 Doug , all the electrical rought in  in is completed. the insulation is done,, and the Sheet rock is 90 % up,,, need a few more screws and pieces in the closet.   Muddling painting Ceiling , recessed lights are all next.

sleeping is worse,,  Last night was pretty typical,,, fall a sleep ~10pm  wake at 11:45,,,, doze off  a bit after 2am,, and finally get up 2:30 - 3am ish,,, and then by this time of the day I am exhausted  and when I nod off,, I have thei great habit now of Biting my tongue,


Base ball season has started,, so far ,, so good,,,although we sat thru 12 of a 13 inning loss in the Bronx,, at least it was a nice  day !


Its end of the day ,, and I am taking a minute to collect the thoughts of today

ok,, thats all - later dudes !!

say good night,, the Party's over

Greetings !!

how does one go from being maybe the near healthiest 58 year old to the worst 59 year old,.. weight gain ,, yes,,,, sleep deprived  - yup, Over eating - ay yuh,,, Breathing issues - ok,,, what has happened,, well what ever it is I am betting it is not going to go on for too much longer,,, you dont see many Fat older guys,,, we just dont live long.

Now if you are reading this ,, its not a Cry for Help , its not that I want anything bad to happen,  its reality TV - sans the Set,,,

You have some things that are jsut aggravating,,,  a busted hand,,, 1st bone in 58 years,, and BOOM ! a richoet off that table saw blade send a triangle of  3/4" pine thats roughly 24  x 24 x 30 triangle back at me at  - what 50 MPH,, hits the left hand enought to break it and my gut enough for a bruise the size of a Softball, yea, ouch. and thats to say nothing of the wonderfulness of having my hanf cast for a month, can't button a shirt or time my shoes,,, just wonderful ,

Hey - we are off to Vegas in a week,, see D & A and of course the Star of LAS VEGAS - TITAN,, can wait to meet him..  Maybe see some desert,  lose a C note on the Roulette wheel,,,chekc out the Circ Du Solie - LOVE,,,

So. We are actually here in the Las Vegas.  And man is it great. First night was the best ... Dinner at a place in the Mirage ,,, a place yea ... Portofino. Super nice Italian restraint in the resort. Seated in a corner booth...the consierir comes over shakes hands with my son... Takes our menus away,,,   Talks about samples of all the food,, offer drinks , champagne and then we get like the best service you ever had .    Tons of food , we go right from there to the Beatles LOVE ,,, I've seen  3 Cirque du Soleil,s - this by far the best ,,, an extravaganza of the max...  And all the music you relate to... WOW..  THe next days followed by , the Hoover dam,, Red Rock Canyon, and the Valley of Fire.. Has to be seen,,, even my Canon can't capture the beauty.   My son and daughters-in-law are the perfect hosts....  Titan - the family pit mix - hates me...  We can only hope the next two days are 1/2 what the first few have been.... One note.  I am still not on Vegas time... Up at 2:30am!

If it's me.. We go to Boulder city.. Counts Kustoms and the Gold & Silver pawn shop, plus Freemont street at night.  If  we get to do the Linq - huge Ferris wheel like the London I ... And maybe see Jeff  Dunham... I,lol let ya know...

Show me wherre it hurts

How do other folks do it,, now I dont wanna come off as a whiney wimp... but some of this actually hurts,

My hip that went from just bothering me when I walked or jogged,, now hurts all the time, and a new twist, no pun intended, is that when I turn or twist the right /wrong way there is a snap in joint,, and weakness,,   that can't be good.  The Middle and ring finger of my right hand are numb most of the time,, when they are not they hurt like of the hell,,, and the pain times goes right up my arm to the shoulder.

How about some good stuff,,, 10 weeks till the Mouse,, can't wait for that ,,,,

Saw John Hiatt at the Egg in Albany,,, excelletn show, more and more impressed by artists that come out and play for 2 + hours,,, this was about 2:15 - he had 2 guitars and a harmonica.. and no guitar tech ever came out to tune the guitar  - John did it,..
he started with Open Road,,, you know .
Shrunken head and Mardi Gras beads
Hanging on a rearview mirror that bleeds
Keepin' her eyes on the open road
No tellin' where that son-a bitch goes

ended with Drive South, Have a little Faith in me, and then two encores of "Crossin Muddy Waters, and Cry Love... a treat of Icy Blue heart, Buffalo River home, Paper Thin, Long Time Comin (my new fav song)  all included in the 2 hour and 15 minute set.

  

We have tickets to see Joe Bonamassa at the Palace in Albany in January,... I will report back on that show,,, 

Recent wedding was very nice, Not that I am a big dancer , cause I aint,,, but would have liked a few more songs that I could dance with my Wife, daughter, Daughter in laws , etc,,,, very nice any way,,, you want to see some pix... ?? ok,,,

if you have not heard,, as of some date in 2015,,,I along with many others will no longer be IBM'ers,,, IBM sold us and the Microelectronic division to Global Foundries so I will retire from IBM and go work for GF, IF they offer me a job !!

The light at the end of the Tunnel

A popular phrase,,,, normally menaing that the you are moving from the darkness toward the light,,, things are imporving,,, that you should try to move toward the light,,, Well what if the light at the other end of the tunnel is a train headed in your direction ??   The deal of when a door closes that another one opens.  Well..... I'm waiting, and I don;t even see any doors...loet alone ones that are opening.

Can the Baseball season just end Already.

Not sure about what to say,,,
 ..I'll post up some of the photos from the lastest project , that started with replacing 4 Skylights, and now ,,,,,,,,,, it's 2  more HUGE  3 foot x 5 foot lights,  , its six  5 foot by 4 foot windows,, a new Sliding door,, 2 smaller windows.. reframing 40 feet of Exterior wall ,,, Probalby 10 new lights,,, a 1/2 doz outlets, a water spigot,  NEw Brick facing for  a 40 ft x 3 ft wall,,, 150 sqft of Tougne and groove Interior siding ,,,ya,,, maybe by Thanksgiving,,,

We saw this guy on Palladia a few weeks ago,,, thought I would give you a taste.,
With a Tom Waitts song,,

Jockey Full of Bourbon