So - It seems that the older I get and the more I hear about ,, and see the affect my poor parenting skills had on my children, the worse I feel about it..
Although they are attempting to use humor to highlight how bad I was,,,, I can see that it affected them in their lives,,,, truth be told I can see that they are FAR better parents to their children than I was to them.... It is clear that they have issues in their adult lives that came from my fucked up methods of parenting them,. It certainly makes me concerned - sad - that I fucked up their lives in that way,,, I kinda wonder if others have the same feeling - that their parents did the same to them,,, is that inevitable ?? OR is it me - Ugh - not a great feeling........
To the other side of that coin - kinda - I see them as amazing parents - yup they struggle I'm sure - It is hard rearing a child or 2 or 3 ,..... but they seem to never miss a teaching moment. Things are NOT just a truck - It's a red truck,,, with how many wheels??? and Who is driving ??? It's pretty cool to watch .....
And the damn Grandkids are WAY WAY smarter than I was or my children were at the same age !!!
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We re - re re watched thePBS = Ken Burns special on Country music,,,,, the next to last episode - "I don;t think hank done it this way" Thats a Waylon Jennings song,,, nut describes the episode - where Jennings, Willie Nelson, Emmylou Harris, Dolly Parton, Hank Jr, Johnny Cash, Merle Haggard - all bucked the system, and made their music - their way - and were extreemly successful in doing it ... It's really a good 2 hours.
Dolly with he biggest hit,,, Waylon with a song that details his struggle with Nashville - look for any Emmylou harris song,,, and you will - as Rodney Crowell says - fell like you were "touched by and Angel. "
George Jones (Possum) biggest hit....
And Hank Jr's tribute to Waylon Jennings - Outlaw Reward,,
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